I thought by now I'd feel exhilarated, happy, and relaxed. But I don’t. Instead of being relieved of having finally getting over this great hurdle, I feel unusually sad. (And sleepy.) Not that I’d miss those sleepless nights of agonizing over sockets and alerts and sis files… It’s definitely something else.
Anyway, I won’t have much time to dwell on these gloomy thoughts – the coming days are still as hell as ever. I must wrestle with 60+ cs105 projects during the weekend, and also finish the thesis paper, finalize the source codes, blah blah blah. Ayoko pang pag-isipan ngayon.
The term “universal inbox” is misleading. People are deceived into thinking that it’s some cool project when it’s really not. Or maybe I’d be more enthusiastic if I had a cool Series 60 phone to go with it, which I don’t.
I wonder if I’d also be this glum come March 4, since I was totally convinced that I’d be ecstatic that day, my day of freedom. Freedom from 12-page papers, 500-peso worth of readings, weird Powerpoint presentations, weekly meetings and updates, unfulfilled service hours – in short, freedom from everything I had to live with for the past few years. (This is beginning to sound like one of those senior-syndromic-overdramatic Guidon opinion columns.)
Or maybe I’m talking too soon. Maybe an F is really coming my way and I won’t have to feel so sad about leaving school just yet. Hehe. Or maybe on the week after finals, I’ll have the unpleasant surprise of a major ADSA case just like last semester. Ah, the memories! :P
posted on 9:31:00 PM
